There have been many moments in my life where I felt embarrassed and awkward. Rather its a part of everyone's life. I am very sure each and everyone must have their own moment of embarrassment. Today while discussing with one of my friend I just remembered one such odd moment. This event that I am going to recall is of my school time when I was a medical aspirant and wanted to be a doctor.I was in 12th class. I was very enthusiast in reading biology and human body to be very precise.
We were given some project work to be done and that too in a way that can be presented in an upcoming medical seminar and create awareness among people as well. I thought of many things, referred books and all but could not get any nice idea. Being maverick I always wanted to do something different.I finally thought to approach some doctor and seek advice regarding the same as they can suggest some nice ideas in a very practical manner. So here was I in our community hospital. But to my amaze I saw there was huge line of patients in front of each doctors. I was not even allowed to be in line without having appointment letter kind of thing. Suddenly I saw there was this doc who was free and I saw it as an opportunity.
As soon as I wanted to enter that Lady Doc's cabin, a bench staff woman at the door stopped me and said that boy you can not go there. She is ladies specialist. I said she is Gynecologist and I know that. but then I am not going for medication, it was for school project. she allowed me. As I was entering many boys , girls and people around were staring at me as if I am entering into something very wrong place. It was the first moment of awkwardness. Anyways I went ahead and met the doc and told her about project work. And as soon as we were done, she suddenly took a pen and on a piece of paper draw two semi circles and a dot almost at lower portion of each. Like you people who are reading the post, I also got it what it was. But as soon as she was done with the drawing I was in this super controlled stage of mine where I was just somehow managing to not to show my teeth and laughing face to her. And she suddenly said "Why don't you create awareness about Breast Cancer." Though she was professional and for her it was normal. Even to me it is normal at this part of life, But at that time being a school boy, I was scandalized to see such picture being drawn in front of mine by some woman. She was then explaining the whole process of cancer check and detection and it became more difficult for me to control my self and finally i puked out all laughter in front of her. She got furious and asked what is wrong. I told her it would be too difficult for me to explain all this to my teachers and woman who will come in to the seminar. And even they will not like a male person to explain this to them. She got my point and said that I should go ahead with this, and nobody will point anything or will feel awkward if you are confident in explaining them. I was in deep thought if I can do this and after a long thought I gave up and asked something else for the project. It was at the same time bit embarrassing for me when she was explaining the details of the body part. I was suddenly sweating even in the AC. And people from outside can see me bit uncomfortable and were continuously watching me. The whole ambiance was like "run away from here as soon as possible". And I did that finally. But that moment was really too embarrassing for me to share with even anyone at that time. Hope you people will understand with what I was going through.
And yeah regarding project, obviously I didn't go with it , instead had something related to Cardiology.
