NULL and VOID

As they say life is a journey, and we need to find happiness in it ......But somehow there's no happiness in what ever I do these days and a unknown pattern of life going on in my life with no specified event to happen, no vision, no goal and just a selfish desire of staying alive and happy but again not assorted. Life seems to be missing some were in the winds with no connecting threads which would help me connect with people, the humor, the passion to be seen in one's life, the fire, the zeal.....

What I have is just the Anger, arrogance, with no soul to calm me down and get me peace within....and if the soul arrives, peace does comes, but comes with some conditions.....A directionless life with no strings attached, no belief in what I do , just there is a thought  "What ever happens, happens for good". And I think sometime the biggest problem with me is that I can not live with some conditions or boundations !!

When we were kids we were told life is about doing the right things, studying, getting a job and be a man/woman of dignity.....and as we grow up the things does not seems the same, it seems as if no one's bothered except the  person you were born to & the rest is just imagination

Happiness and peace are two  eternal and the most precious things in life, if it comes never let it go...
A page with no proper meaning, that's how my life's is revolving now with no event of anything. It is all "NULL and VOID"

Getting the other half...

Everything changes.
Everyone changes and I am no exception to this. From a very submissive personality to a leader, now I have changed to a very dominant personality.
I realized it a few days back when I observed that I am no more able to control my anger.
I have become more rigid and adamant. If I feel something is wrong than I don't listen to others.
I shout, knowing that it's not required, still I don't stop myself.
The consequences are that I am hurting people around me.
I am pushing away people who really matter.
I used to think it is all because of certain incidents in my life and thing will go right with time but no,
it had changed my nature very rudely and badly.

I always say that "When you know you are wrong, you are half right."
Seems to me that I have been satisfying myself by being just half right.
Lately I realized that the other half is equally important.
Now I can't go back and apologize to everyone, but if you read this and you feel that i have been this rude to you sometime, than I want you to know that I have realized where I was wrong and I will work on this attitude of mine.
A very special person said to me.

A Leader is always loved but a dictator is never.

Mummy and Sweaters

My mummy is fond of making sweaters and she make it very very well. I remember the varieties of sweater she made for me all through my childhood winters. Different designs , colors and patterns. Many of her sweaters were better than the ready made one. She always used to invent some new design and patterns which used to be much popular among other aunts, neighbours and they used to take reference from her and take away the sample designed sweaters for reference. And she had hell lot of varieties of knitting needles.

 

                                                                      There  are many events and memory attached with most of them.Memories like what I did with whom when I was wearing some particular sweater. And the weather in winter in north always feels like out of the world thing with foggy and misted air that makes a scary, romantic and adventurous scene in single shot. And people in such situation get recognized by sweaters. If somebody is coming towards you in such situation it is the fluffy sweaters first which get recognized than the face. And these are some such things that I am missing since last 4 years being in Mumbai having almost no winters.

Coming back to Mummy again. Instead of saying  "no" multiple times to her , she use to make one for whomsoever she feel like. It was a kind of time pass to her. Even she used to involve me in many of her sweater weaving process. Most of the times for making ball out of the Wool skein or unweaving of old sweater which I enjoyed the most as it was kind of game for me in my childhood (sometimes used to compete with my brother's ) which I used to enjoy while watching any matinee show. And these activities from mummy's side made me break away from studies without any scolding and enjoy watching TV or something along with it. I remember it was usually winter holidays after lunch time , sort of siesta , when some of the matinee show on TV along with groundnuts or some peanut stuff.

But gone are the old days. Now nobody is near Mummy. Everybody is busy in their own life and mummy too got bored of making it time again for Papa. So she had kind of left making all these sweaters and her favourite time pass since last 4 or 5 years. And now there is no one to appreciate her or encourage her for making sweaters. Even my brothers and relatives who are facing winters are preferring the ready made one and mummy too got older  by now to take initiative for someone. Even for herself. (She used to make beautiful scarf and cardigan for herself even.) Also along with growing tentions in life she cant give much time to it and nobody cares even. And I am sure she must be feeling bad and sad for this.

 But recently a call from my 6 year old nephew to my mummy just increased her smile quotient a lot. He requested his Dadima to make a sweater for him every year without even asking him. And this innocent request made my Mummy smile a lot and lot of other ways to stress away her tentions in her own way!!

Late Night , Office and Beer..

It is late 2:21 AM time and still I am in the office, absorbing the abuses being given by my colleagues to me just because they are also with me at this odd time, working in the office just because of one tender mistake of mine. If not shouting then I can feel the bloody abuses in their mind.

                                                         
All dark in office everywhere except at our side where light are glowing but shouting please let us go off, even we need a rest... and sound of music coming from many side of me from various bays ranging from bollywood to english to some native marathi songs.  People having  cigarettes with them having puffs of it in between the working break. We got dinner (read different varities of Biryani) as ordered by our kind client manager.

Amidst all these somebody offered me to have beer with him to cross the night as smoothly as possible while working and it really worked well. We have diferent kind of people over here with their own special talent. Some cracking joke to pass the time , or a guy helping others to limber up their body after some work by giving some physical massage to body , other one taking long naps and waking up suddenly asking where the work has progressed ??.

Thinking and analysing about my life and myself  I had passed hours and now I am writing this blog,  having nothing to kill time. Last two or three weeks of my life had been really messed up badly and going through hell. I dont know whether to cry or laugh in this situation but one thing I am sure off....

I might get influenced by them for some time but will never lose myself and will mend my own way further to my future dreams.

Smile

Although I myself dont smile much but this is for my friends...

Your smile can brighten the darkest day,

Your smile can take all the pain away,

And it changes your face,

Such joy and happiness,

Such dignity and grace,

Your smile does so much you see,

Your smile full of joy for everyone to see.

So SMILE baby SMILE!

Testers and Developers are from different planets

There is always a kind of natural friction between the testers and developers. Even when they were friends outside the door, professionally they seemed to be from different planets altogether. Testers would say bug and developers would reply, 'as designed'.

Like Woman, Developers belong to Venus

Venus is the Goddess of love in Roman mythology. Developers are “creators”. They write code and the code becomes 'alive' when it executes. This act of creation makes them fall in 'love' with their creation. It is difficult for anyone to find faults with their creation. Some developers are totally smitten by what they have created.

Like man, Testers belong to Mars

Mars is the warrior God in Roman mythology. Testers like to 'destroy' things. They like to 'break' the product to find defects. They take the customer's side (an outsider) instead of siding with the developers (an insider!). They are always coming up with suggestions on what can be done better.

No wonder developers and testers seem to be on opposite sides. However, without independence, testers will not be able to do justice to their role.

So how to bring them together?

Here comes the role of project manager who by his sheer diplomacy and attitude brings both of the world together. But then some natural friction will do creep in as the work demands it.  But this friction is needed to ensure quality. Conflicts need not get out of hand. They can be a positive force to improve quality as mentioned below:

                Feel it:

                Developers can review and unit test each other's code. Put them in the tester's shoes and feel the code by the tester's role and check how it can help. Similarly, testers can review each other's test cases and documents. Sensitizing them to each other’s feeling will make them understand each other better.

                Attitude:

                The key is to make sure the attitude of either party is right, let it be tone of communication, behavior etc. When people find fault with your work, it is easy to get defensive. It is easy for the critic to be seen sitting in judgment of the person instead of commenting on the work product. One should ensure the attitude is objective both in written bug reports and in meetings.

                Power Balance:

                Testers in many software teams feel powerless. This comes from historical reasons where project managers seemed to take sides with the developer. While testers are responsible for quality, they do not feel empowered to stop the release. When you empower your testing teams, your product quality improves and establishes a good balance in your team.

Whatever be the frictions be , With an ongoing project in time they will respect each other and keep each other honest. So they are two different mind sets of a team to function as a whole. Development and Testing are like the positive and negative terminals of battery, two opposing and complimentary forces that create great energy source to devices. Similarly they are the source of energy for software development.

Use of colors at its best!!

Although I never adore Karan Johar and Shahrukh together in any of their movie but don't know why I am somehow impressed by the picturization of KANK's "Tumhi dekho na" song. Whosoever idea it be but it really uses the different color in creative way. Although Shahrukh had been in single black dress whole through but with each fresh dress of Rani the whole back and foreground amazingly matches with each other. Starting from the blue-black to yellow-black combination and further then to orange , pink and green each dress of Rani matches with whatever surroundings it had , be it walking people , trees , leaves , cars or whatever.  Though song is soothing but this video just add an extra beauty to the song. 
You can see it yourself.

I can remember many more song which used some such concept earlier. Means they at least matched actor and actress's dress. But the prominent one I can remember is from Sarfarosh's Amir and Sonali's "Jo hal dil ka".(Although dont feel I should post the video of same here ;) )
It just feel good to see people putting their creative efforts in making atleast one or two of their song video worth noticing.